Looking for Normal

Looking for a normal we’ll never find

Searching for a self that’s lost in time

But nothing’s the same

Everything’s changed

What happened? Where’d it go?

Everything we used to know

Will never be what it once was

That’s what loss and tragedy does

I’ve said this before

And I’ll say it once more

Nothing’s the same

Everything’s changed

Will we ever be okay?

Looking for a normal that’s gone forever

Searching for a way to still be together

But nothing’s the same

Everything’s changed

What happened? Where are we?

Everything we used to be

Will never be the same again

Sometimes lose and change just happens

I’ve said this before

And I’ll say it once more

Nothing’s the same

Everything’s changed

Will we ever be okay?

Looking for a normal that leads to hope

Searching for something to help us let go

‘Cause nothing’s the same

Everything’s changed

What happened? What now?

Everything we used to vow

Will never be a promise kept

But hope is coming, if not here yet

Nothing’s the same

Everything’s changed

But, maybe that’s okay?

You

“You”
September 1, 2013

((Verse 1))
When I was crying late that night
Unable to form my words right
You wiped away every one of my tears
And, You told me what I needed to hear
Then You emptied me of me and filled me with you
Until proclaiming Your name was all I could do

[Chorus]
You are my Savior, my Lord, and my King
You are the Creator of everything
You are the real and true beloved Son
You are the holy and anointed One
You are the beginning and the end
You are my Teacher and You’re my Friend
I am Your daughter
You are my Father
And You love me

((Verse 2))
When I was lost and feeling worthless
You showed me that You give me purpose
You led me in the right direction
And filled my heart with Your perfection
When all I could see was my pain and my scars
You rid me of myself and showed me who You are

[Chorus]
You are my Savior, my Lord, and my King
You are the Creator of everything
You are the real and true beloved Son
You are the holy and anointed One
You are the beginning and the end
You are my Teacher and You’re my Friend
I am Your daughter
You are my Father
And You love me

{Bridge}
You led me from the valley of death
You filled me with Your eternal breath
You spared my life on that tree
When You died You thought if me

[Chorus]
You are my Savior, my Lord, and my King
You are the Creator of everything
You are the real and true beloved Son
You are the holy and anointed One
You are the beginning and the end
You are my Teacher and You’re my Friend
I am Your daughter
You are my Father
And You love me

[Chorus]
You are my Savior, my Lord, and my King
You are the Creator of everything
You are the real and true beloved Son
You are the holy and anointed One
You are the beginning and the end
You are my Teacher and You’re my Friend
I am Your daughter
You are my Father
And You love me

Until next time this is Brittany Alexandria, daring you to keep obsessing over the things you love! Because we could always use more hope and passion in this world! xoxo

Find me on Twitter and Instagram – @ogbrittanyalex

Find my podcasts “The Mask; Her Aid” and “Obsessive Girl Podcast” on your favorite podcasting platforms.

Buy my book “The Mask; Her Aid” by Brittany Alexandria on Amazon for Kindle.

I Am Loved

“I Am Loved”

((Verse 1))
My heart played me like a game
Then I suffered through the pain
Now I am living for You
Because, Lord You got me through
All the gloom and despair
That made all those who love me
Look like they did not care
Yes, now I finally see

[Chorus]
I am loved
I am cared for
And, I know
I am worth more
Than the pain
And the shame
That destroyed me for so long
Now I know you made me strong

((Verse 2))
All of misconception
And, every deception
Hurt me so much I forgot
I am in Your every thought
Every day and all night
I’m in your line of sight
And, I don’t have to worry
Because I finally see

[Chorus]
I am loved
I am cared for
And, I know
I am worth more
Than the pain
And the shame
That destroyed me for so long
Now I know you made me strong

{Bridge}
All of the lies
Come from the enemy
And, only You
Turn death into beauty
The enemy claimed the truth is
I am completely worthless
But, because of You
I know what is true

[Chorus]
I am loved
I am cared for
And, I know
I am worth more
Than the pain
And the shame
That destroyed me for so long
Now I know you made me strong

Until next time this is Brittany Alexandria, daring you to keep obsessing over the things you love! Because we could always use more hope and passion in this world! xoxo

Find me on Twitter and Instagram – @ogbrittanyalex

Find my podcasts “The Mask; Her Aid” and “Obsessive Girl Podcast” on your favorite podcasting platforms.

Buy my book “The Mask; Her Aid” by Brittany Alexandria on Amazon for Kindle.

“Why” (Written July 21-22, 2013)

((Verse 1))
This feels like a dream I cannot shake
It feels so unreal, am I awake?
I wanna open my eyes
And find out it was a lie
Let’s go back to life as it was before
I wish I could just not care anymore?

((Verse 2))
Things were perfect as they were
But, now it’s all a painful blur
I always thought you were someone else
I guess I was lying to myself
Because looking back on it all right now
I realize I should have seen it somehow

[Chorus]
Why does living life have to hurt so bad?
And, why does one hurt make my whole world crash?
Why can’t I be carefree for just one day
Before the pain and sorrow come to play?
Why do I even have to care?
Can’t I just live life unaware?

((Verse 3))
This is so crazy, why did things change
I felt amazing; now I feel strange
I was flying so high
But, now I wanna cry
I was looking through a rose colored lens
And, now everything, but nothing makes sense

((Verse 4))
My world is spinning all around
Everything seems to be crashing down
Things were lining up so well
But, then it all quickly fell
Every single time I start to bounce back
I am hit by yet another attack

[Chorus]
Why does living life have to hurt so bad?
And, why does one struggle make my whole world crash?
Why can’t I be happy for just one day
Before the pain and sorrow come to stay
Why do I even have to care
Can’t I just live life unaware

{Bridge}
God I know you’ve gotta be here
But, it feels like you disappeared
So, God if You’re listening to me
Can you answer a few things for me

[Chorus]
Why does living life have to hurt so bad?
And, why does one struggle make the whole world crash?
Why can’t I be happy for just one day
Before the pain and sorrow come to stay
Why do I even have to care
Can’t I just live life unaware

Until next time this is Brittany Alexandria, daring you to keep obsessing over the things you love! Because we could always use more hope and passion in this world! xoxo

Find me on Twitter and Instagram – @ogbrittanyalex

Find my podcasts “The Mask; Her Aid” and “Obsessive Girl Podcast” on your favorite podcasting platforms.

Buy my book “The Mask; Her Aid” by Brittany Alexandria on Amazon for Kindle.

Begin Anew and Start Again

((Verse 1))

Once upon a time

There was a young girl

Whose sweet, little mind

Couldn’t trust the world

She was broken

From words spoken

Such a long, long time ago

She just couldn’t let it go

 

[Chorus]

But, then she met a nice man

Who showed her that she can

Begin anew

Start again

And, learn how to

Be a friend

To those who show

Her how to grow

 

((Verse 2))

Now she’s the new girl

In a little old town

It’s a whole new world

Where news gets around

But, she’s okay

Cause they won’t say

Any word about their own

And, that’s something that they’ve shown

 

[Chorus]

Cause, now she knows a nice man

Who shows her that she can

Begin anew

Start again

And, learn how to

Be a friend

To those who show

Her how to grow

 

{Bridge}

And, when trouble comes her way

She won’t ever run away

Because she’s one of theirs

And, each one of them cares

 

[Chorus]

And, now she knows a nice man

Who shows her that she can

Begin anew

Start again

And, learn how to

Be a friend

To those who show

Her how to grow

 

[Chorus]

Yeah, now she knows a nice man

Who shows her that she can

Begin anew

Start again

And, learn how to

Be a friend

To those who show

Her how to grow

Until next time this is Brittany Alexandria, daring you to keep obsessing over the things you love! Because we could always use more hope and passion in this world! xoxo

Find me on Twitter and Instagram – @ogbrittanyalex

Find my podcasts “The Mask; Her Aid” and “Obsessive Girl Podcast” on your favorite podcasting platforms.

Buy my book “The Mask; Her Aid” by Brittany Alexandria on Amazon for Kindle.

Perfect Mold

((Verse 1))

Looking in the mirror, you see yourself                                 

Wishing you could be anybody else                                      

‘Cause the girl you see ain’t the girl you’ve seen                  

On the covers of every magazine                                           

So you eat less and less                                                          

Slowly die from the stress                                                     

You’ve put on your body                                                     

To become a hottie                                                                 

 

[Pre-Chorus 1]

Oh when you look at your reflection                                     

All you can see is imperfection                                              

You see burns, and pain, and flaws unending                                

You don’t see the beauty that is mending                             

But, you’re a perfect mold                                                     

And, you’re worth more than gold                                        

 

[Chorus]

So, hear me out                                                                      

Forget about                                                                           

The pain, the weight                                                              

The lust, the hate                                                                    

And, just believe                                                                    

You can achieve 

                                                                   

((Verse 2))

In the dark of the pain, I see you stand                                 

With an old red stained blade in your hand                          

Late into the dark night, you lay awake                                

Praying your life God would finally take                              

But all He gives is life                                                            

So you pick up your knife                                                      

And, without a next thought                                                 

You do what you should not                                                 

 

[Pre-Chorus 2]

Cause, when you look at your painful scars                         

All you can see are your hateful marks                                  

You see burns, and pain, and flaws unending                                   

You don’t see the beauty that is mending                             

But, you’re a perfect mold                                                     

And, you’re worth more than gold                                        

 

[Chorus]

So, hear me out                                                                     

Forget about                                                                           

The pain, the weight                                                              

The lust, the hate                                                                    

And, just believe                                                                    

You can achieve                                                                     

((Verse 3))

Lying alone, cuddled up in your bed                                     

Instant regret, floods through your heart and head               

He promised love, but all you got was hate                           

For yourself, for him, and this ruthless fate                           

Now all you think about                                                       

Is how to live without                                                            

The innocence you lost                                                          

For such a painful cost                                                           

 

[Pre-Chorus 3]

Now when you look at your reflection                                  

All you see is your own rejection                                           

You see scars, and pain, and flaws unending                        

You don’t see the beauty that is mending                             

But, you’re a perfect mold                                                     

And, you’re worth more than gold                                        

 

[Chorus]

So, hear me out                                                                      

Forget about                                                                           

The pain, the weight                                                              

The lust, the hate                                                                    

And, just believe                                                                    

You can achieve                                            

Until next time this is Brittany Alexandria, daring you to keep obsessing over the things you love! Because we could always use more hope and passion in this world! xoxo

Find me on Twitter and Instagram – @ogbrittanyalex

Find my podcasts “The Mask; Her Aid” and “Obsessive Girl Podcast” on your favorite podcasting platforms.

Buy my book “The Mask; Her Aid” by Brittany Alexandria on Amazon for Kindle.

My Everything

Verse 1
I am scarred
I am bruised
I am marred
I’ve been used

You are Righteous
You are Pure
You are Highest
You’re my Cure

Chorus
I want You to know
You’re my Love, You’re my Hope
And You are the Reason I’m alive
You’re every Answer in my life
You are the only Air I breathe
And, You’re Everything I need

Verse 2
I am wretched
I am lowly
I’m dejected
I learn slowly

You are flawless
You know all
You are faultless
You don’t fall

Chorus
I want You to know
You’re my Love, You’re my Hope
You are the Reason I am alive
You’re the only Answer in my life
You are the only Air I breathe
And, You’re Everything I need

Yeah, Yeah

Chorus
I want You to know
You’re my Love, You’re my Hope
You are the Reason I am alive
You’re the only Answer in my life
You are the only Air I breathe
And, You’re Everything I need

Bridge
You are my love song
My right when all is wrong
You’re the reason that I sing
You are my everything

Chorus
I want You to know
You’re my Love, You’re my Hope
You are the Reason I am alive
You’re the only Answer in my life
You are the only Air I breathe
And, You’re Everything  I need

Until next time this is Brittany Alexandria, daring you to keep obsessing over the things you love! Because we could always use more hope and passion in this world! xoxo

Find me on Twitter and Instagram – @ogbrittanyalex

Find my podcasts “The Mask; Her Aid” and “Obsessive Girl Podcast” on your favorite podcasting platforms.

Buy my book “The Mask; Her Aid” by Brittany Alexandria on Amazon for Kindle.